又在圖書館用功了。其實只有從七點半看到九點半，因為在家一吵我就很煩，這是目前讓自己有點進度又不太煩的方法‧唸書是很辛苦的一件事，也有好玩的時候，但絕對不是像我現在這樣明天要上台做團體的報告presentation，星期四還有一個超多份量的作業要趕。
下午回到家也沒發生什麼事，就開始掉眼淚，難過到不行。覺得在這兒唸書一點意義也沒有。可能是看到陳傑希他們出去玩的照片吧？想到我也可以在台灣輕輕鬆鬆過日子，幹嗎跑來這自討苦吃。昨天在電話中聽到嬸嬸問我
姊說我回去後是不是薪水會比較好，工作比較好找。這是完全沒把握的事。
很耳熟的標題，沒錯又停電了！這是雪梨耶，已開發國家都是這樣無欲警的停電嗎？上回停了三個多小時，今天可不知又要停多久了．我昨天還打電話回家看家裡有沒有受颱風影響停電，停水．結果今天反正是我們這兒停電，這是什麼世界？第三世界嗎？
還好電腦的電池還可以撐一下，讓我再來瞎掰一下．前兩天心情很不好，一直覺得自己哪裡有病，所以決定試新藥．其實多年前就吃過了，但是副作用太嚴重就放棄了．果然這個藥多年來還是沒變，我吃了兩天都想吐到一個不行，昨天又頭痛的利害，所以今天他再度被我放棄了．也不知道要怎麼辦，這兩天因為颱風假，我姊與弟都沒去做生意，加上小朋友全都在我家，所以沒事就打電話回家瞎掰，以解思鄉之苦．加上昨天晚上到同學Ｗｅｉ家吃飯，他雖然很累，還是開車送我回家．真是讓我感動．我沒事到人家家裡騙吃騙喝，還要人家送我回家，害我真的很不好意思．上回我回來他剛拿到雪梨的駕照，還開車去機場接我．想想自己真的也是很幸福的，出外還是要靠好朋友的照顧的，不能再孤僻了．
這星期對聲音超過敏，為了躲避我室友的電視攻擊，我老是躲到圖書館，有時也只是打混摸魚，書也沒真正看多少．看電視是人家的自由，我也不能叫人家不要看，況且他最近都很客氣，開的小聲些，說話大聲些還會跟我說不好意思吵到我，這樣好像變的我很難搞．也沒錯啦，其實我這個人大部分時候很好相處，但有時候龜毛起來可是打遍天下無敵手．
電池剩一半了，說說Ｗｅｉ昨天說他在雪梨遇到的討厭的事吧！前些日子他走在路在等紅綠燈時，為了要閃一個路人，不小心踩到前面那個人的鞋子．那個白人似乎是澳洲人，但他也不確定．居然叫住他，說他把他的涼鞋踩壞了，要他賠．Ｗｅｉ一看只是一個小裂縫，況且他也沒證據那是他踩壞的．況且那個白目的人還給他看另一腳，想證明另一腳是好的，不看還好，一看根本是有一個一模一樣的裂縫．當然我同學說什麼都不賠了．那個人就說那到警察局好了，我同學就說好啊．一邊走時那個人還一直問我同學身上有沒有錢，有錢就給他就沒事了．我同學很生氣，問他為什麼他要給他錢，他又沒把他的涼鞋踩壞．結果那個人居然無恥的說，因為我是白人，你是死亞洲人(Because I am Caucasian and you are fucking Asian.)．後來到警察局前時遇到兩個警察，哪個死白人就問警察他可不可以要我同學賠錢．警察說他無法證明鞋是我同學踩壞的，所以去了警局也沒用．那個人就很生氣．我同學就告訴警察他罵他死亞洲人，那可不可以告他毀謗，結果那個人死不承認他說過那樣的話．臨走前還罵說，居然不賠錢，那就是你們那該的死文化吧！(If that’s your fucking culture)
這樣糟糕的人到處都有吧，想他不知騙了多少亞裔人士的錢呢．我同學說當他與另一個朋友提及這件事時，他朋友告訴他假如他想移民的話，就要有做次等公民的心理準備．不過你移民到哪個國家，你的英語多好，你在那個國家待多久．有些人的種族歧視永遠存在．我先前也常這樣覺得．我在台灣可是頭等公民，吃好住好穿好，幹嗎要來這兒當次等公民？唉，人生有的必有失，任何事都要付出代價的吧！
快沒電池了，看來這電今晚好像沒有會來的意思．我還是趁著這光亮趕快梳洗一番，看點書，準備上床睡覺吧！
In the air. I seldom take window seat on long distance flight, but this is really cool to see the view from high above. Australia is a very “flat” country, full of hills but not many mountains. I don’t know which part we are going though. A bit strange because Sydney is in the east and we ought to hit east back to Taipei then why do we see all the plains? I think we turn around and hit the south or north? I am so bad at directions so I don’t really know where we are and which way we are heading. Anyway, it’s really cool. It’s really nice to take a window seat. I found classical channel and it’s great. It’s like a new journey to me. I like opera and I like watching the different landscape. The hills, the plains and some are like chessboards and very few houses. I really love traveling and often forget how wonderful traveling is and it’s just like everything in my life: I learn, I forget then I need to be reminded or relearn it again. And this is just life, repeat again and again.
Happy. Really happy. I was sad and emotional and wasn’t sure why I have to be feeling excited about going home. I don’t really feel excited about going home nor did I feel the way when I came to Sydney. It’s just me. But it’s really nice that Shen wrote me a letter and they all look forward to seeing me.
Perhaps we are flying over the northern territory? 一格一格的棋盤式, it’s a magic that they can draw the line so straight. It’s amazing. I am right! The announcement just said that we are flying over northern territory then India, Malaysia, then Taipei. I think they are supposed to be fields where they grow crops. Cool. I would like to show Shen and Hua this. I really like the puzzles I bought for them but when Chris asked me Hua is already 10 years old, how could he like that kind of gift. Well, he’s my nephew and niece, I know what they like. He’s really such a wet blanket and that’s why I don’t feel like spending time with him anymore. Actually, yesterday I realized that I was often disturbed by people and let them to occupied my time then I didn’t do my job then I wasn’t happy for that. Sighed.
I have to laugh about the poor English what the vice capatian just said. He said Manila in Chinese while he’s speaking English. Unbelievable!
Okay, I want to write something good about Sydney, some good memories about Sydney before I go back since I just complained too much and I think it’s not fair for her.
Sydney is not a city you can fall in love at the first sight. I don’t have much battery left. It’s a shame that I probably won’t be able to write as long as much I like. Besides, I was thinking about doing some translation work if I could. We’ll see.
For some reason, the land is red now. I wonder if there are people living there.
I haven’t really found a favorite spot but I really like Macquaire. I do enjoy lying on the grass reading newspaper. The best thing is grass everywhere and you can just lay down and enjoy the sunshine and nobody would say anything or look at you as you are a freak. Well, my Taiwanese classmate did when he first saw me lying on the grass. He said only westerners do that. So what? Why can’t I do that? I like most librarians, who are really nice and helpful. I like walking on the leaves in the fall and looking at the empty branches without leaves. I love the fact that I can look very far and surrounded by trees and grass. Tom said that you can say Sydney doesn’t have a lot of history but you can’t say it has no culture. I totally agree with that. The revolving restaurant on the 47th floor of Sydney tower is cool. I enjoy so much spending time with David’s nephews at the Aquarium. The sharks and penguins are cool but the best is the smiles of the two kids. The swimming pool is really cool and the yoga class is great! Some teachers from linguistics departments are great.
I really think I would like to stay for another year because I think I just started to know it better and enjoy it. If I leave now, I will miss the chance to know you. I think it’s great that I get to know myself better since I don’t have much to do here and besides, I was so depressed. It’s hard to explain but also it’s not necessary, right?
Like now when I see people get angry, I feel sorry for them. But still I will do the same from time to time. So what can I say? Some people you just don’t get along and it’s really not necessary to waste your time and energy and upset yourself. That’s one thing I learned here, I have to be with those people who will bring me up not bring me down. Chris always brings me down because of his personality and the different values. I don’t share the same value with Jessica either. This is hard for some people to understand.
Values are the very important thing and if people don’t share the same value then it’s hard for them to get together. Finally, I understand what Johann said. When I said Steve is stingy, Chris said what? stingy as a man? I didn’t want to tell him that I think he’s really stingy too. He’s one of those very stingy men I’ve ever met and I really can’t stand people like that. Just different values, which doesn’t make him a bad person. See, when you can someone a nice guy, there’s always a but after that. Haha.
People at focus are nice. Christians are nice but I don’t feel I learned much from them, I got bored later. A lot of free time to do nothing is great too. Some movies I watched. The lamb shank was nice. Haven’t had food I would say great. Smell so good now I am hungry. Perhaps I should start to watch movie so I can eat while I am watching. Bad habit.
