May 12, 2008
Monday 9.58 pm
Citalopram Day 1
Can’t believe that I started medication again. Well, just do what I have to do, I guess. So tired. Too tired of struggling. Not many people would understand what kind of struggling that is.
Every day is a battle with myself. I have to eat very healthy, exercise a lot, and try to do things which will make myself happy. It seems easy but trust me, it’s not. When I let myself down, I have to talk to myself to cheer me up. When I started to cry, I have to tell myself that everything will be fine. And it happens so many times a day so many days a week. It’s really too much for me to take.
Cold. Strange, according to the weather forecast, it should be warmer. Well, let me see if I have any signs of side effects. Well, I am so so tired and that’s a reason: I woke up at 6.35 this morning. Can’t really when was the last time I got up so early well, I know that I was still awake at 6.30 sometimes. The worst is that when I turned off the lamp last night, the clock showed 2.45 pm. I have to have at least 7 or 8 hour sleep every day for the past few months. Well, I had like twelve hours sleep the night before so that’s a balance. I don’t know. Plus I went swimming for a bit today so now I am extremely beat.
Besides that, I feel a little bit nauseas, headache seems not far away, after swimming had rashes, now my whole body is sore. I tried to sleep early but couldn’t. Feeling cold. Seems like not so anxious but a bit excited. I was so loud in class today. That’s terrible. Sleepy. Should check email then go to bed.
電腦被佔滿滿的，又累到一個看不太下書。寫個信給大家好了。
我日所思夜所念的眾親朋好友大家好，
寫的這麼噁心，希望大家讀信的時候不是在用餐時間。看我心情這麼好就知道我快回台灣了。耶！三十九天倒數計時中。
從上次寫信到現在發生了什麼事，好像沒什麼大事可以報告耶。放了兩星期假我在家看書，去學校與同學討論研究報告，有放與沒放一樣，哪兒也沒去。最大的事應該是與我們講師吵架，弄得心情不太佳，然後不佳狀態持續還挺久的。寫不出來。放棄。
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