Lin Jessie的部落格

i guess it's time for a break. really need to take some time off. perhaps i should ask for sick leave and do nothing at home for a whole week. hmm, this is just my daydream. don't think i'll get the whole week off. well, i probably should start to plan, and then go on vacation for a week to refresh a bit. it's a bit too much for me at the moment, i guess.

i burst into tears on the mrt on my way home. it's just too much. this afternoon, i forgot to bring the handouts after i got on the bus, so i had to get off the bus, took another bus home, and then took a taxi because i was running late. and the reason i was almost running late already was becasue my printer had run out of ink when i wanted to print today's handouts. i was in a hurry becasue i spent the whole morning baking, and then went to see the doctor. one of my students said that he hadn't had the cookies i made for a long time, so i told him i would bring them tonight. i knew i didn't have to cause i wasn't feeling too well recently. besides, i needed to go see a doctor this morning. however, i still got up early and made some cookies and the scones i had wanted to make for a long long time. then of course i ran out of time, and i didn't even have time for lunch.

this afternoon's class was not too bad, but wasn't too good, either. and then in the evening, the first class just didn't go well. students were not responding to my questions and i was kind of impatinet. besides, i blamed on the student who asked me to bring those cookies for my forgetting my handouts. what a terrible teacher. the second class went on just fine but i felt sick. i got a stomachache, and felt nauseous. my lower back was really sore, and i could hardly stand. i was going to tell my students, but i felt i was compalining too much. i wasn't happy. there's only one reason who people aren't happy: things don't go the way they want them to be. i knew that well, and i knew i should be too hard on myself, but just couldn't help. i'm not perfect, and i don't have to be.

well, i knew i was a bit careless sometmies and i should be more careful. however, it seems like everything just went wrong recently. i got hit by the bike, my class didn't go well, i burned my hand while making cookies. i couldn't go anywhere doing anything i enjoy because i was too busy at work, and i often got sick. my whole life is a mess. sigh. or perhaps i just havn't recoved from the shock of being hit by the scooter. perhpas it's good to let out some negative feelings. tears are supposed to carry away some waste in your body, perhaps the unwanted feelings? relax and take it easy! get some good rest. tomorrow is another day.