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i became to lazy to write in english and that's probably one of the reasons why my english got worse and worse. well, guess i'll have to start from here otherwise i feel really sorry for my students since now i am back to teaching again.
it's an okay day. well, the whole week i was stressed out because of the new class. i just came back and it's a new level i had never taught before so it's really difficult for me at first. i spent so much time preparing the classes and they didn't really go well and i felt i was a terrible teacher but at the same time i had to tell myself that i tried my best already. sigh.
both my chinese and english got worse and my coworkers often laughed at me. i know they were just joking most of the time but still it didn't make me feel better. i am going to write some suggestions for my students to improve their english. i guess i should be the first person to work on that. sigh again.
i don't know what's wrong with me. sometimes i feel alright other times i feel terrible. well, i am always like this, so in a way, it's not strange at all. like jesse said, i like to ask a question then answer it myself or just say something then give an excuse for it or say the opposite. well, i guess this is a habit formed in sydney since i didn't have many people to talk to. still, i realized that i have been talking too much, really too much without thinking. it's not good at all.
well, it's not really me for the past few weeks? no, it's me but i don't know. it seems to me that something is not quite right, but i'm not sure what that is. complained too much? well, i always do.
it's saturday night. actually i planned to go out but then i decided not to go. was going to meet my ex-boyfriend and he would be with his girlfriend. i don't really like that. it's a bit awkward. i don't really think his girlfriend will be too happy to see me. this thursday i met an old coworker who's married with a kid. i didn't think too much but after we met, i started to wonder that even though we were just friends but is it really ok to meet a married guy alone. i don't know. i am quite okay and i guess i just can't care about what others think.
today, suddenly i was hit by a thought that the reason why i was accused of sexual harassment by my coworker can be because I am a single old woman? very disturbed thought.
perhaps i should have gone out dancing or done other fun things instead of staying home by myself. perhaps i am feeling a bit depressed now and that's why i don't want to go out and don't want to meet friends. i know i can find someone to go out with but i am just lazy. what's the meaning by the way.
spending the whole day preparing class. cleaned my room a bit, played with my nephew and niece and just took it easy. don't have the desire to do something too complicated or something needed too much energy.
however, i know i have to do something. i am falling down towards the depression hell and should try hard to pull myself up before it's too late.
sleepy. time for some good sleep. tomorrow is another day.
it's an okay day. well, the whole week i was stressed out because of the new class. i just came back and it's a new level i had never taught before so it's really difficult for me at first. i spent so much time preparing the classes and they didn't really go well and i felt i was a terrible teacher but at the same time i had to tell myself that i tried my best already. sigh.
both my chinese and english got worse and my coworkers often laughed at me. i know they were just joking most of the time but still it didn't make me feel better. i am going to write some suggestions for my students to improve their english. i guess i should be the first person to work on that. sigh again.
i don't know what's wrong with me. sometimes i feel alright other times i feel terrible. well, i am always like this, so in a way, it's not strange at all. like jesse said, i like to ask a question then answer it myself or just say something then give an excuse for it or say the opposite. well, i guess this is a habit formed in sydney since i didn't have many people to talk to. still, i realized that i have been talking too much, really too much without thinking. it's not good at all.
well, it's not really me for the past few weeks? no, it's me but i don't know. it seems to me that something is not quite right, but i'm not sure what that is. complained too much? well, i always do.
it's saturday night. actually i planned to go out but then i decided not to go. was going to meet my ex-boyfriend and he would be with his girlfriend. i don't really like that. it's a bit awkward. i don't really think his girlfriend will be too happy to see me. this thursday i met an old coworker who's married with a kid. i didn't think too much but after we met, i started to wonder that even though we were just friends but is it really ok to meet a married guy alone. i don't know. i am quite okay and i guess i just can't care about what others think.
today, suddenly i was hit by a thought that the reason why i was accused of sexual harassment by my coworker can be because I am a single old woman? very disturbed thought.
perhaps i should have gone out dancing or done other fun things instead of staying home by myself. perhaps i am feeling a bit depressed now and that's why i don't want to go out and don't want to meet friends. i know i can find someone to go out with but i am just lazy. what's the meaning by the way.
spending the whole day preparing class. cleaned my room a bit, played with my nephew and niece and just took it easy. don't have the desire to do something too complicated or something needed too much energy.
however, i know i have to do something. i am falling down towards the depression hell and should try hard to pull myself up before it's too late.
sleepy. time for some good sleep. tomorrow is another day.
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