Lin Jessie的部落格

I got upset around noon then I decided to get out of my house to breath some fresh air(or should I say polluted air since its taipe). After an hour or so, I found myself drinking tea at the balcony of Cloud Gate Restaurant on the 12F. I had an okay view to look around the area of Taipei Main Station. The buildings are ugly, and there is really much to see. However, the sun was out and the sky was clear. Looking down the bustling street, suddenly I realized how lucky I was. While most people in town were busy working, I was able to enjoy myself doing things I liked to do. And I thought of these day while I was so down and those friends who were there to talk to me, to support me, to give me good advice. I feel blessed. I know I should be content and grateful.

 

It's Christmas again. I really wonder why people in Taiwan celebrate it. For what? I thought that I didn't want to spend a lot of money to eat Christmas meal(I tried a few times before but never liked Turkey and I am not a big fan of western food) or go to a bar and get drunk while everybody is as drunk as me. I don't like to hear guys tell me that I am a lesbian when I refuse to go home with them. I am getting older and that doesn't sound like a good idea to me anymore. I'd rather spend some time with some close friends.

 

I have to think but I am thinking too much again. What's the meaning of life? It's hard to live without knowing that. However, most people just live without thinking. It's really exhausting when you think too much of where we are from and where we are going plus what we are doing at the moment.

 

It's almost a week since I came back from Europe. It seems like everything is still the same but in a quite different way. The only thing I know for sure is that I have changed. It's a good trip without planning too much but gained a lot unexpectedly.